Making my personal page further minimalist.I am
back on SeaMonkey, to create a HTML based blog.Hope people like
it.Yes, just like last time, but no scripts at all, and no
tracking as usual.Obviously no advertisements, I never believed in
web advertising.Hope it works out good.
Some year(s) ago I was with my superior - we
faced a dilemma : "What about dating profile ? Sure we have a
section , but should we count it as an entity ?"
That night, lying on my bed, I held my brick
phone on my chest, waiting for it to connect to the
WorldWideWeb, specifically to my OkCupid profile.Then I started
browsing through profiles - rather random browsing through
profiles on WAP formatted pages.I was reading profiles like the
way it was in my muscle memory, looking for specific
keywords.That's when I realized one thing - most people on dating
websites are not there for hook-ups.You see , dating websites are
like train journeys : sure you want to ride it, but you hope to
meet new people, rather have short talks about everyday
life.Upon realizing this, I emailed about it to everyone I knew
who would be interested about this specific clause that
might cement our decision.
Next day, when I met superior , I cried,"What do
you think, isn't it a reason enough to exclude dating profiles ?",
to which he said,"My old said Anata ga ocha o ireru mae ni
mado no soto o mite".We made important decisions, evaluated
critical choices and although I re-translated this phrase from
what he said be back on that day, every now and then he asks me if
I understood what he said that day.And I think I don't !
Continuum in time and space : You cannot go back
in time, but in spatial domain, you can take a step back.
The day was January 27, 2007.I was hooked to my
10 month personal computer until a mail arrived and
The lab is always empty.Like my past, it was repainted
with a coat of pale white luster paint, to create an ambiance of
|\ _WALL - >_____________________| |
| | |E| |
| | |X| |
|W| |I| |
|I| |T| |
|N| | | |
|D| X | | |
|O| | | |
|W| |_| |
| | \ |
| |______________________________ \ |
|/__WALL AGAIN !____|DOOR|_______| |
. \\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\. .
. THE "OTHER" LAB AND THEIR\\\\\\. .
. OTHER PEOPLE\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\. .
See the X mark ? That's where I usually sit(You can even click on X above to see what I see through the window outside).Oh, the lab requires access code, so don't be under the impression that anyone can walk-in or go-out of the lab easily.That's it.I have spent here most of my time in last 7 months.I seldom go back to home to sleep.I barely sleep for 6 - 7 hours, wake up, eat some breakfast and get off for lab.There are rarely any visitors, except some few usual faces.Having spent 24 hours straight for few days to few hours everyday, this lab has become a characteristic of current phase of my life.But like every video game - there are constraints.
The big constraint : The "OTHER" lab and their
"OTHER" people.Call these people some of my alter-ego(s) or people
who like to peep through the red door, to see what people
in my lab are upto, walls being made out of wood, one needs to be
very careful.As a result I am under a constant fear that these
"OTHER" will hack into my designs or developments talked about
during one of those conversations amongst other people in my
lab.It becomes difficult to hide what one is working on and keep
one's creativity healthy.
It's just because of this reason that I enter the
lab as swiftly and as quietly as possible.Since the access door is
right adjacent to the "OTHER" lab, I never exit from the access
door ; I always use the EXIT door (some people in our lab didn't
even know it existed/functioned as door). Having said that, I need
a permanent fix to this problem.Hope I can find a fix or be more
fearless in letting "OTHER" people monitor my research progress.
Every now and then you come to a day , an hour or
a minute that can be life-changing.For me that day has arrived.I
have to make a decision with a huge risk involved, which can
either flourish or ruin my career.When everything comes at stake,
your mind starts to wander with anxieties, your heart starts to
pump blood with stress and you body feels like it's added a few
I can't make this huge decision with an
impulse.Taking up such a decision involves evaluating outcomes,
taking calculated risks.It would be great if you had
someone to share this to, but all that it does is to ease the
mental stress, one still has to suffer with the pain of coming up
with a decision.